Let's be honest, the creative process is rarely as neat and tidy as it looks on those curated Instagram feeds.

Here's mine presented in a somewhat linear way, but the truth is, it's anything but! Inspiration, procrastination, panic, and the occasional stroke of brilliance – it's all part of the messy magic.

Step 1: Procrastination Disguised as "Practical Planning"

Instead of diving into my creative haven, a strange impulse washes over me: I must create the perfect mock-up! Detailed sketches, agonizing over material placement... it's essential to get the concept right before I waste any precious materials, right? Then comes the rabbit hole of "technique research." Surely, I must master a dozen intricate methods – most of which I've never even heard of – before I can begin. This feels productive, but a nagging voice in my head whispers, "You're just stalling for time, aren't you?"

Step 2: The Dreaded Blank Workspace

Okay, time to face the terrifying void. This blank workspace isn't going to magically transform itself into brilliance. But somehow, every sketch feels like a bad school art project, every idea utterly cringe-worthy. My inner critic has a field day, gleefully shouting, "Maybe you've lost your touch..." or the classic, "Who are you kidding? You should have stayed in your previous corporate job"

Step 3: Breakthrough, Panic, or Maybe Just Another Coffee Break

Suddenly, it clicks! Inspiration is here, and I frantically try to capture every fleeting detail before it fizzles out. Then, the deadline looms large. Is there enough time to execute this vision? Maybe those cringe-worthy sketches weren't so bad after all… Cue the stress snacking and desperate caffeine infusion.

Work in Progress - Jewelry Inspired by the Yukata fabric I received

The Messy Magic of the Process

And yet, amidst the chaos, something beautiful happens. I experiment, I fail spectacularly, I laugh at myself (and maybe shed a few tears of frustration). I dig deep, discover hidden strengths, and realize that sometimes the most worthwhile journeys are the ones that leave our studios (and our sanity) in a state of beautiful disarray. Because whether you're an artist, a writer, or someone bravely attempting a Pinterest-worthy DIY project, the creative process is rarely a straight line. It's messy, it's unpredictable, and it's absolutely worth embracing.

All this creative chaos is fueled by my participation in the upcoming "Yukata Inspired 2024" exhibition. This incredible project brings together metal & collage artists inspired by vintage Japanese yukata fabrics.

Mark your calendars for the opening reception on May 10th (Seattle area folks!), or view the entire collection online just in time for Mother’s day.